It is 9:34 in the AM and I have been up for almost 2 hours watching coverage on Hurricane Gustov. This event is really bringing out and showing what is in my heart. I am praying and hoping as many others are that this disaster misses New Orleans, but I also sense something in me that is disappointed that I am not seeing more disaster. This sounds horrible, and I am asking God why my heart is so messed. I mean, I don’t want anyone to get hurt, but I want to see what this storm is capable of.
What I am seeing in me is that there is so much more room in my life for Jesus. I want a pure heart, one that is not disappointed, even in the slightest bit that no damage in any way hit the Gulf Coast. One that has nothing but praise and celebration when everyone can come back to there homes and not notice that anything in the city is wrecked. One that prays for safety and believes and celebrates with all my heart that nothing but safety results. If you are reading this, please take a second and pray with me for my beart.
Thanks.
I understand. I am so messed up when it comes to traffic and wrecks. There was a horrible wreck on the highway today, it was SO backed up, and when i got close I was disappointed that it wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be! What the hell? I don’t know why, as humans, we want damage. It doesn’t make sense. I am glad God can change our human sickness.