To be honest, I was really looking forward to a week alone. Usually when this happens I am not the one staying back, I am the one leaving. Well, this time Amy and the girls headed up to the great white north to visit family in Saskatchewan and left me behind. OK, enough of the links, sorry. So yea, I was looking forward to the time by myself even though I knew I was going to miss my girls terribly.
Well, things have gone a bit differently than I had thought or hoped. I have been a wreck without my girls. Seriously, it is driving me crazy. I have little ambition, I am looking for stuff to do all the time and I don’t want to be alone, yet I don’t want to be with people either. It is this crazy world that I have seldum found myself in.
Now when I go away to lead a trip, or even to set up a trip I find myself motivated, working long hard day’s and wishing the time would slow down, but this is different. I guess I have realized a few things:
1. I love my girls
2. I love the chaos that the 5 of us bring to the house and our lives
3. My primary community is my family
4. I’m never letting them leave again (hehe).
Where is your community? Who is it that when they step out of your life for a bit you feel lost, scattered and even empty without? Take a moment and write that person, tell them what they mean to you.
